The mentality switch that really turned it all around for me was one that embodies this idea of just being. First, what it meant just to be human. This idea organically brought me relief, acceptance and forgiveness.
Relief that I’m not alone and there’re billions of people scattered across this planet who share in the confusing and complex reality that I also wake up to each new day. No matter how alone and misunderstood, as being human allows us such feelings, I grew to recognize the contradiction in which we shouldn’t experience such darkness because in the feeling itself, we share with the entire world population.
Then I continued to seek truth and understanding of my purpose here, typical of a recovered suicidal mentality. One who once lived life with each step directed toward self-destruction and death. I knew there had to be more to life than the way I was perceiving and living it.
My determined need and dire search of truth inevitably led to finding Jesus (even in typing His name, the sun came out of the clouds to beam in through my window as I’m writing this by the way), the King of the world and saving God Almighty, Comforter, Healer, Restorer, as recorded in the Holy Bible.
It was then that I learned by God’s grace of what it meant to just be with Him, just be His child, accepting all He has to teach and offer as I observe in awe all His love.
Just be accepting and welcoming of His grace, His new chapters that He’s so ready to write into the books of our lives, chapters that might not ever make sense to the rest of the world but bring so much more happiness and life than we could’ve ever obtained without Him.
And then to just be that light and love that He showed me, so the rest of the world might have more ability to see, sparing any further wandering in the same darkness I was subjected to.
This is the intention of this blog and of my every step in life from here on. I hope and pray that His love and presence be received by each of you lovely readers, through each of my words, and all the inspiration that flows from that grace.
As I share my constant journey and encounters with God, I also want to welcome any questions or discussion you might have. I understand we’re all in drastically different walks but aside from the variant, we each carry something heavy along the way.
Remember you’re never alone, that I can be here for you if you’re in need of encouragement and prayer with something. But above all, the Holy Spirit, your gracious Almighty God and creator is here for you and He’s so much closer than you know.
Have no intimidation, it’s just me, just B! (My family nickname growing up!)
Definitely silly, but more easy-going and lighthearted than my occasional shy shell might express (see, I just got the image of a turtle, oh boy am I a goof!). Community and deeper connection is something I want to be an advocate for, especially in a world that has an increasing need for it. So please don’t hesitate to reach out!
It’s been about a year now at the time of writing this that I made Jesus the Lord of my life. I’m a psychology major student working toward my Bachelor’s degree. I aspire to be a biblical counselor and author, just diving into all the excitement of what the Lord might have planned for me! Wherever it may lead, however it might twist or turn, I’ve been called to record that journey here, with all the faith that He will bring me through to His glory.
None of it could’ve been possible without Him, every step I took in my journey so far, every step I will take in the days to come, even as I write each word here I feel His power flowing through me to be able to do any of it. Each and every thing is a result of His wonderful creation, so I take no credit to any story of wonder that I post here and proclaim that if it’s for good, it is the work of His hand. He authors it all and gets all the glory!
May God bless you and don’t forget to just be with Him today, rejoicing in all the fulfillment of your every need that awaits you.
(Matthew 5:1-11 CEV)
“Jesus’ disciples gathered around him, and he taught them:
God blesses those people
who depend only on him.
They belong to the kingdom of heaven!
God blesses those people who grieve.
They will find comfort!
God blesses those people who are humble.
The earth will belong to them!
God blesses those people who want to obey him more than to eat or drink.
They will be given what they want!
God blesses those people who are merciful.
They will be treated with mercy!
God blesses those people whose hearts are pure.
They will see him!
God blesses those people who make peace.
They will be called his children!
God blesses those people who are treated badly for doing right.
They belong to the kingdom of heaven.
God will bless you when people insult you, mistreat you, and tell all kinds of evil lies about you because of me. Be happy and excited! You will have a great reward in heaven. People did these same things to the prophets who lived long ago.”